Stronger Than You Thought

Hi . I'm not superman , not perfect . 

But I expect a lot . 

I don't know what am I doing in a time like this . I really should be studying for exams but I just can't focus . I think too much . I'm really fustrated . 

Like always , I'm not doing well . I can't really do well in everything , eventhough I know my limit but I'm still kinda dissapointed . Other people can do this but why can't I ? I always tell myself that I'm gonna do fine if I try my best , but now I'm freaking scare because I don't think I've done my best . I got tired easily , break down easily , cry easily and hurt easily , and the worst part is I have to wipe off my tears and move on every single time . It's tiring . 

Yes, I know people change . But how come they changed so fast ? And I try to tell myself that I'm okay with it . I changed , also . I treat people badly when I'm not in a good mood , it's unfair to treat others like that I know . I'm really sorry about that and I'll to change that . I really hate to be the one blamed , no matter what I do even if right or wrong I will always be the one to apologise first . wtf That feeling isn't good . But no matter how I control my temper , I still have feelings , don't treat me like shit . 

And it's hard to hold on when others keep telling you to give up . I know what I'm doing , I know what's best for me . I'll stay strong , well that's the only thing I can do :') 

Okay , gotta study ! Buuuuaaaiii :)